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Friday, December 3, 2010

did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?

did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?

try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?

you fall deeper with each passing day,

but try to hide it in every possible way.

he's only a friend, and nothing else--

that's the lie you keeping telling yourself.

you keep on saying he's just a bud,

but deep inside, you're falling in love.

you get so giddy when you meet his eyes,

but keep reminding yourself it isn't right.

a simple glance turns into a stare,

but you pretend that you don't care.

it's "not right" for you two to be.

is that why you hide it so no one can see?

but how long will you pretend?

keep lying that he's just a friend?

perhaps your feelings you can never show.

perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.

your friendship can't be risked over this,

so being his girl is an impossible wish... 

其实

其实

我很累了

其实

很少有人懂我

我习惯假装坚强

习惯了一个人面对所有

我不知道自己到底想怎么样

有时候

我可以很开心的和每个人说话

可以很放肆的

可是却没有人知道

那不过是伪装

很刻意的伪装

我可以让自己很快乐很快乐

可是却找不到快乐的源头

只是傻笑

我不习惯把事和别人说

因为我不习惯别人用可怜的眼光看我

其实

我很珍惜身边的人

只是生活的压力让我善于遗忘

把那些记忆通通忘掉

我以为遗忘可以让自己 快乐起来

可是

我感觉到的却是更多的寂寞

黑夜来袭

周围的空气很冷

一个人坐在草地对着天空发呆

也不知道自己脑子里在想什么

怀念过去

仅此而已

其实

我也很渴望有一个人能懂我

能走进我的心

其实

我很累了

真的想放下所有

可是现实的压力只能让我背着这些慢慢走

Tuesday, November 30, 2010

很想问你

很想问你

当你看见我为你写的每个字每个词

有没有哪一个曾经感动过你

很想问你

你是否有过因为我的关系

而改变过你任何一个主意

哪怕只是个渺小的决定

很想问你

看着我为你做的事,看着我为你写的文

你是以怎样的心情去看待

开心?感动?没感觉?还是一笑而过?

很想问你

当我身边有其他人了

你..还会吃醋么?


很想问你

看见以前的物品,场景

你是否会怀念以前的我们?


很想问你

你还会像以前那样

期待看见我,期待我找你吗?

很想问你

当我转身离开时

你是否曾经有想过伸手把我拉回来?


很想问你

我们还有可能吗?

i miss you and i love you ♥

we're so far apart, i can't show you how much i love you, i can only show you by words..
you can feel it, or maybe you can't, but it isn't that real by showing it using words..
i rather show it through my action..
but will i have that chance??
i'm waiting for this whole time, getting hurt, sad.. just want you to know that i really do love you..

it has been months that i have been waiting for you..
can you see that or feel it??
there's nothing much i can do now..
i just wish to see you as soon as possible ..

we have been through so much ..
you have deleted me so many times and tried to delete me from your life, tried to ignore me..
but end up, we are still close friends, that no one can separate us apart..
we argued because of a little stupid things, you got mad because i don't listen what you said, you got frustrated when i sleep late and i didn't study well..
i really appreciate it.. but i really don't know, do you appreciate what i have been doing for you??

all this time, what i have been through, can you see it? can you feel it?
it hurts, really hurt, but i said i have found someone that worth the pain for..
it is because that's you..
i said before, i never love someone so deep, until i met you...
and now, i'm in love with you, so deep, until i can barely breathe..
it might be very funny for you..
but it is true...
i just can't control my feeling towards you...

7th august ~ we get to know each other.. do you still remember??
today is 30th november 2010..and do you know we have known each other for 115 days already??
do you know after a week we will be knowing each other for 4 months?

our promise, do you still remember??
the words i said before, do you still remember??
reading back our conversation, its bring back the sweet memories and also some sad memories..
everytime i read it, my heart hurts, because i really miss how we used to be ..

do you still remember that you said you don't know whether i really need you or not??
do you still remember that how you used to say you love me?
do you still remember that how you used call me?
do you still remember what we have been through the whole time when we were together?
do you still remember what i have wrote on my status before?
do you still remember how you used to comment on my status?
do you still remember how we used to be?
i really miss those time alot..

if time can go back, i wish i can go back to the time how we used to be..

i really miss those time when i'm with you..
i miss how you said you love me..
i miss how you called me..
i miss what you have wrote on my status..
i miss how we used to be..

i love you..

Monday, October 18, 2010

愛情使人忘記時間,時間也使人忘記愛情。

1. 女人在床上留的眼淚,比在任何一個地方多。 男人在床上說的謊話,也比任何一個地方多。

2. 愛情正是一個將一對陌生人變成情侶, 又將一對情侶變成陌生人的遊戲。

3. 愛一個人很難,放棄自己心愛的人更難。

4. 一個人最大的缺點不是自私、多情、 野蠻、 任性,而是偏執地愛一個不愛自己的人。

5. 一個承諾在最需要的時候沒有兌現,那就是出賣,以後再兌現,已經沒什麼意思了。

6. 我們放下尊嚴,放下個性,放下固執,都只是因為放不下一個人。

7. 有時候,我們愛著的,不是現實的那個人,而是回憶裡的他。

8. 愛情使人忘記時間,時間也使人忘記愛情。

9. 世上最遙遠的距離,不是生與死的距離,不是天各一方,而是我就站在你面前,你卻不知道我愛你。

10. 失望,有時候也是一種幸福,因為有所期待,所以才會失望,因為有愛, 才會有期待,所以縱使失望, 也是一種幸福,雖然這種幸福有點痛。

11. 世上最無法掩飾的,是你不愛一個人的時候的那種眼神。

12. 對於出現在自己所愛的男人身邊的任何一個女人,我們總是有許多聯想的。他會愛上她嗎?一生之中,我們重復著多少次這樣的憂慮?這些微小的妒忌,本來就是愛情的本質,也許是毫無根據,毫無道理的。

13. 喜歡一個人,是不會有痛苦的。愛一個人,才會有綿長的痛苦。當然,男人給女人的快樂,也是世上最大的快樂。

14. 愛對方多一點還是被對方愛多一點,從來不是我們選擇的。我們所嚮往的愛情,跟我們得到的,往往是兩回事。

15. 思念是苦的,假如你思念的那個人永遠不會愛上你。

16. 當一個女人不被一個男人所愛,她赤身露體,在他眼裏,不過是一堆血肉和骨頭。

17. 愛人是很卑微的,很卑微的,如果對方不愛你的話。

18. 一對男女之所以能夠成為佳偶,並不是因為他們完全一樣,而是他們能夠接受彼此的差異。

19. 我們害怕他會變心。我們害怕愛情會變。首先改變的往往不是一個人的心,而是他對事情的看法。想情人永不變心,你要不斷重新認識改變了的對方,重新欣賞改變了的對方。

20. 珍惜時間的人,很少會錯愛。我們的感情弄得一團糟,通常是因為我們喜歡浪費時間,百無聊賴,以為自己浪費得起。

21. 帶給你快樂的那個人,就是也能帶給你痛苦的人。

22. 如果沒法忘記他,就不要忘記好了。真正的忘記,是不需要努力的。

23. 只想找一個在我失意時,可以承受我的眼淚,在我快樂時,可以讓我咬一口的肩
膊。

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

请你 !!

如果有一天

我消失了

你会不会来找我 ??

你会不会想我 ??

你会不会到处打听我的消息 ??

你会不会伤心 ??

你会不会哭 ??

应该不会吧 ??

说真的

我已经很累了

我也彻底的对你绝望了

再也没有任何期待了

如果有一天

你再回来找我

那已经是太迟了

因为我不可能会再回到你的身边了

到了那天你回来找我的时候

你应该发觉到

最爱你的人是我

最想你的人是我

最担心你的人是我

最在乎你的人也是我

可是一切都太迟了

我被你伤了又伤

我再也无法承受你下一次给我的伤害

你离开我

我已经快疯掉了

如果下一次你再离开我

我真的不知道我该怎么办了

我也不知道我还会不会变得更坚强了

所以。。。当你意识到我

注意到我的时候

请你别再回来找我了

我累了

我想停止这一切

我不想再受到任何伤害了

就让我们留给彼此一个珍贵回忆吧

不要在继续了

就到此为止吧

我们一开始就不属于对方的

再这样下去

我真的会崩溃

再也没有力气起来了

就请你别再回来找我了

我们是不会有结果的

以后我们还是做朋友比较好

没有什么会比朋友更好的了

True Friends

what do you think when it comes to " true friends" ??

everyone can make friends with anyone easily.. but to find a true friends... it needs time..

true friends are the people who knows everything about you, understand you, and they will still love you...

they won't because of other people talk bad about you and don't care about you...

we need to appreciate the frienship that we have right now...

don't say that your friends don't care about you...

they do care about you, they just didnt show out how much they care about you..

they're using their own way to care about you, but you can't feel it and you say your friends dont care about you...

it is so stupid...

true friends are the person who can make you happy when you're sad

true friends are the person who can cheer you up when you're down

true friends are the person who will hug you when you're down and say "everything gonna be alright, dont think too much"

true friends are the person who will help you wipe your tears when you're crying

true friends are the person who will lead their shoulder to you when you're crying

true friends are the person who care about you when you're hurt

true friends are the person who will always be at your side when you need them

true friends are the person who will always be there for you when you need help

true friends are the person who will talk back when other people say about your bad things

true friends are the person who will hold your hands when you're about to fall

true friends are the person who will worry about you if you're sick

true friends are the person who will keep tease you when you done anything wrong

true friends are the person who will take care of you when you're with them

true friends are the person who will keep ask you to drink more water, wear more cloths when the weather is cold, don't drink alcoholic drinks too much, don't smoke too much ....

true friends are the person who will make you laugh like a stupid idiot when you're down

true friends are the person who will lead you a hand when you need them

true friends are the person who will keep message you when they know you're not alright

true friends are the person who will always be with you no matter what happen and never leave you just like a brother or sister...


爱了,痛了,也累了

我爱你那又怎样呢?
你爱的又不是我
我爱得这么累是为谁啊?
爱了,痛了,也累了
我根本不了解你所谓的爱情是怎样的
我这么努力,拼命的来爱你
到头来受伤的还是我

可能是我的错

错在不该对你抱着那么大的期望
错在我太爱你,没办法让自己停下来
错在一开始爱上了自己不该爱上的人
可是这又能怎样呢??
你了解吗?你知道吗?
我受伤了,流泪了,你在乎吗?
你在乎的人一开始本来就不是我
但是我却一直告诉我自己你是爱我的,你是在乎我的,看来我真的错了
这一切真的太迟了
我没办法停了

就只能这样默默的去爱你

不惜一切的去保护你
在远方看着你
看你开心的笑容
可惜那个笑却不是为我而笑

如果你跟她在一起真的会让你更开心

我愿意放手
因为我知道勉强是不会有幸福的
只要你开心
我也会开心了
这样就够了
我不需要那么多
我要的只是你开心。。。

付出

我付出了这么多
得到的是一句对不起
那我之前付出的都是假的吗?
你没看到吗?

付出这么多

得到的是一句别等了
我这么爱你
是假的吗?

付出这么多

得到的都是伤害
难到都是白费的吗?

付出这么多

你都感觉不到吗?

付出这么多

浪费这么多时间
换来的都是伤痕累累

付出这么多

换来的都是痛

付出这么多

换来的是伤心的眼泪

付出这么多

却得不到你的爱

付出这么多

只得到你的同情

付出这么多

对你来说都是假的吗?

难道我什么都比不上她吗????

Sunday, September 26, 2010

变了

之前,
因为爱你
所以变得敏感,自私,爱哭,敢爱敢恨

现在你离开了
我变了
变得不再那么敏感了
变得不再那么自私了
变得不再那么爱哭了
变得不再那么热心了
变得不再那么敢爱敢恨了
痛的感觉也变麻木了

你离开了
我变得坚强了很多
不会再依赖你了
不会在没有你陪伴的时候觉得闷
不会再闷的时候想起你了
不会再做什么事之前去顾忌你的感受了

你的离开
让我变得更会照顾好自己了

你的离开
我变得更会分辨是与非

你的离开
我变得更会出去玩了
不会再像之前一样
待在家里了

你的离开
我变得更自由了

你的离开
我变得更自我了

你的离开
我变得更自大了

你的离开
我变得更轻松了

你的离开
我变得更会分配好我自己的时间了

你的离开
我变得不再像之前那么罗嗦了

你的离开
让我变得独立了很多

你的离开
让我变得不再那么怕孤独了

你的离开
让我学会了很多
什么该做
什么不该做

或许你的离开真的能让我变得更开心
或许我真的不需要你在我的身边

或许我们真的不适合。。。。。。

你离开了
我也学会了很多
也变了很多
这样的我
应该是你想要看到的吧 ??
开心的我
会照顾好自己的我
独立的我

这样你就不必为我担心了
因为没有你
我也可以好好的
开开心心的活下去

我再也不会为了你
哭花了我自己脸
让自己变憔悴
因为我要证明给你看
我一定会过得比有你在的日子更
幸福 !!!!!

受伤了

我爱了,却被伤害了
我哭了,因为我受伤了
我累了,因为我太爱你了

因为爱你
所以不惜的放下了一切
但是你只把我当玩具一样的玩
喜欢的时候就爱不释手
不喜欢的时候就把我丢在一边
看也不看的
就把我给忘记了

如果你早点告诉我
我就不会越陷越伸

如果当初不是你闯进我的心里
我就不会爱你爱到这么深

如果当初你搞清楚你对我的感觉

我就不会傻傻的被你一次又一次的伤害

如果当初你说你爱的人是她
我就不会去爱你

如果当初我们不认识
我们就不会闹得这么僵了

如果当初我们没说那些承诺

我就不会越想越心痛了

如果当初你说你不爱我
我就不会傻傻的去爱你了

如果当初你告诉我事实

我就不会一次又一次的被你玩弄

如果当初你告诉我们是不会有结果的
我会停止对你的爱,不会再继续了

当初都跟你说了,我们是不会有结果的

但你偏偏要让我爱上你
当我爱上了你
你却这么残忍的一次又一次的伤害我
这样伤害我,看我哭
你很高兴吗?

我是这么的爱你
多么的不想失去你
想你开开心心的
想竟了办法让你开心
却弄得我自己这么累
我这又如此呢?
是我的始终还是我的
不是我的始终不是我的
我要求不多
只请你答应我
你一定要开心
看见你开心的笑
我心也会觉得很开心,很欣慰的

爱你,所以放手
爱你,所以让你自由
爱你,所以不管怎样也要你开心
爱你,所以我不会再纠缠你了,因为我不想你嫌我烦
爱你,就只能这么做了

或许没有了我
你会更开心
不管你再怎么伤害我
我依然还是爱你的
我不会就这么轻易放弃的
就这样吧
让我这样默默的去爱你,保护你。。。
对你的爱,始终都不会变的

Sunday, July 18, 2010

out with them




















Saturday, July 10, 2010

爱?寂寞?

"我爱你~虽然很动听,但如果不是真心的,我宁愿不听。



一直重放着那首我们一起听的歌,感觉仿佛回到了从前和你在一起的日子。



我的爱回不去。




最远的距离不是南极与北极的距离,而是我就站在你面前,你却看不到我。




我的世界由我自己来主宰!!!!


我只能用面具来掩盖自己内心的痛。。。


爱得太深,伤的是自己。。。


离开你,不是不爱,而是不敢爱了。



有些男人就像猫,总是把你抓伤,却又一脸无辜的看着你



爱一个人不一定要上床才叫做真爱。。。




爱不爱都不是问题,问题是,你是不是真心的。



伤了心,心复元了,可是还是有疤痕。



爱你的心,我收不回。



男人哭了是因为他真的爱了,女人哭了是因为她放弃了。。。


by alphonse :



我们的爱情不像是一首曲子,既播放完了还能按“重播”键。


曾经,你带给我的,是我向往的快乐;如今,你却给我不想要的寂寞。


最让女人难忘的男人,往往并不是最爱她的那个,而是伤她最深的那个。


找个女朋友或者男朋友,倒不如找个好朋友。


当爱逝去的时候,我顿时空了。
完全的空了。
其实你带走的,何止我的心,还有我的灵魂。


每个人的心中,都有曾经最爱的人。


当初最深的爱,如今变成了残忍的思念。


爱这种东西,从来就不会有最好的答案。


明明就是相爱的两个人,却因为倔强而不爱。结果还是一样,越爱,真的越寂寞。


当你开始教会我爱时,同时请教会我,在你离开时,别哭。


早知道终究都是要分开,当初就真应该放手的爱一回。


这只是一场自作多情的游戏,你没有必要把我弄到陷得那么深。


过去的岁月里,我们究竟遗忘了些什么?我们知道以及清楚明白,自己失去的,在未来才是主要关键。

movie together




10.7.2010. this is the first time we watched movie together in the mall. me, joseph, melvin, ivan, jack and jack's gf. we watched eclipse together. it was awesome, but too bad i went home early... but i have a great day with them.

i will never never forget today, i just feel like me and him back together again. when we go round round, i saw my ex's sis and i saw my ex, which i used to love so much, but he just freaking damn idiot, he thinks that everyone likes him, because he is handsome, there is no way everyone likes him, he isnt that good, but whatever, i dont care about him or his things anymore.

at 12.30 we went to eat lunch at lamee there, melvin drive his car and brought us there. it was a nice lunch. when i was eating, joseph took out my wallet and check everything inside my wallet and took out my ic ==" and showed it to melvin, wtf? is so embarrassing... ><

after that jack and his gf joined us for lunch, after paying the bill, we went back to mall again to wait for ivan.. =] but he is late ==" late for 2 hours.. HAHA~ but it is great i can hang out with him and jack for two days.. ^^

before the movie start, i wanted to buy ear rings, but end up joseph is the one who buy ==" make me didnt buy the ear rings. sigh .. how sad is that .. always like this want, what i want to buy end up he is the one who buy or do it.. =="

whatever la.... the point is...I HAVE A GREAT DAY WITH THEM...i love them.. HAHAH~ i cant imagine after broke up with joseph, i still can be so close with him, and he still will find me, chat with me, sms with me, teach me about iphone things.. im so glad about that.... =]

10.7.2010~ what a great day i had with them .. <3>

Monday, June 28, 2010

love?

i wonder why everyone comes to love just like an idiot, stupid ?especially girls. maybe " love is blind " is really blind..

we cant control a guy heart, we cant control he must only love us, even though that guy is you bf, but you cant do anything when his heart isnt with you anymore, you cant force them to love you.....

a guy and a girl havent married, you dont have the rights to say " you just can love me until you die "
because is not true !!! no one going to love someone forever... forever doesnt exist...

when a guy and a girl get together, doesnt mean that they will be with you 24hours, they got things to do also , they need some space for themselves , families and friends, they got work, they got study or class to attend..... dont just think of yourself, think of the one you love too ....

you might love that person alot, what if he dont love you ? when you love that person so much , end up the one who get hurt is you , not him.. the one will be crying like a cry baby is you , isnt someone else...

爱不爱都不是问题,问题是,那个人是不是真心的。 。 。

俗话说得好 " 爱一个人是需要很大的勇气的 "

" 不要跌得那么深,最后受伤的是自己 "



Sunday, June 27, 2010

当他不再爱你

当他不再爱你了,请不要在他面前没出息地流泪!要知道
,只有爱你的人,才会打心眼里心疼、珍惜、呵护你。千万


别忘了爱情的美只美在相爱那时!一个主动离开你的人,别

指望他会真正关心、照顾、牵挂你,顶多是旁观者的同情和

怜悯。你需要这个吗?如果不需要,那么,就请骄矜的你,

不要放弃本来属于自己的那份骄矜吧。

  当他不再爱你了,你的爱就是他的负担了。一句话,你

不是他的“宇宙中心”了。既然天意如此,各自滑向各自的

轨道吧。请不要计较自己的付出,也不要指望什么回报。爱

着不爱自己的人,本身便不该有回报的。别计较对与错,这

样还可以给灵魂松松绑。

  当他不再爱你了,你和他一个向东一个向西,一个有心

一个无意,背道而驰。也许,他也想努力和你保持步调一致

,但是身心都已不由己。其实,爱一个人,对一个人好,根

本不需要提醒和培训,如同花儿开与不开,只能听凭自然不

能人为造就。说穿了爱就是一种本能。对不起,请放他一马

吧,他没有这样的本能了。

  当他不再爱你了,请千万不要失去自信。其实,在时光

匆匆的脚步里,我们寻寻觅觅期待已久的,就是一种感觉,

那种感觉叫爱情。他让爱情附身,传导出了你想要的感觉,

于是你爱上爱情爱上他,但这并非因为他优秀。同样的道理

,他不爱你了,也并非代表你不优秀。优秀与否,从来就不

是爱的理由。

  当他不再爱你了,请伸出手,微笑祝福他,爱过就不要

说抱歉,爱过就要心存感激。不要把爱变成恨,爱是美好温

暖的,恨却是丑恶冰冷的。何必让生命中最美好的东西风化

变质呢?分手,他失去的是一个爱他的人,擦肩而过的是真

情,而你失去了一个不爱你的人,重新得到的是机会。想一

想,没有什么不公平。

  当他不再爱你了,请闭上眼睛,拥抱一下回忆吧,悄悄

地抚摸那些或明或暗凋谢的温暖,轻轻地凝视那些或深或浅

凌乱的忧伤……然后,让我们抬起头,深呼吸,举目眺望,

看!蓝蓝的白云天下,长长的生命路上,爱的锦绣繁花已遍

布天涯,早有一朵开在了你必经的路旁向你招手致意,那就

是你生生世世注定的缘分!

Friday, June 25, 2010

yeah yeah yeah

是啦是啦 ,我很坏啦,不是什么好人,所以不用疼我,疼他就好了啦,他是你的**,我不是 !!!

Thursday, June 24, 2010

miss, 想念


想念我们在一起的时候。。。
miss those days so much, every week end went out and drink , if not we went out to tea, now only left me and wee at here , clayton in canada, liew in miri , and fu in sibu, when will we be together again? i really miss you all ....
no call , no message anything, just only he message me, go back miri also no say, no nothing, when can we meet again? when can we be together again ? when can we go out to tea together again?
the pictures which we have took it together, where it is? is in one of your phone!! i want those pictures, pictures which we have took it together, when clayton farewell, and when we drink together!!!!!

miss you all car's smell, especially clayton's car.
remember everytime clayton fetch me home, he sure will bring me to eat before fetch me back home, want me to eat , so i wont have gastric and can sleep nicely at night.
everytime we drink together, he sure will help me drink.... the most funny is when he speak chinese... and when we play together, truth or dare!! that is so damn fun... but everything changed, i dont know when they will be back , only know fu when will be coming back and find me, the others, maybe staying at there wont come back anymore....

I MISS THOSE SHALAO SO MUCH ~

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

fuck that !!!!

report report report !!
you think you very great ?
simply go report people, after report people go and hide, dont dare to come out and admit you are the one who report !!
I SAID BEFORE!!! WHO EVER TOUCH MY BELOVED BROTHERS!!! I WILL NOT NEVER FORGIVE THAT PERSON !!
eat too full nothing to do ? simply go report my brother for what ??
other people bring phone to school , bring cigarette to school, you dont go report but you go report my brother?
for what ??? dont let us find out who are you !!!
you will be very dead, if my brother find out who are you !!!
he will never never forgive you !!

no matter what happen , remember !!! jie will always be with you all, remember what we have promised ? that promise will never be broken, i wont leave you all no matter what.
jasmine, you all sister, always love you all.



Tuesday, June 22, 2010

my good friend, barrry and joshua

the last day with joshua.
watching basketball at stadium with barry, joshua.

prom night.
dancing with barry~


barry likes this picture.
he said his eyes are big !! HAHA ~



i miss the time


i miss this room.
i used to sleep in this room.

i miss this dog.
i always took it away from him.

everything have became memory. everything past, but i still cant forget about the day we have been together. playing all the time together.

i miss the smell. the smell of his room, the smell of his shirt, the smell of his dog, the smell of his blanket and pillow.

i have given up. just because of that thing, i totally get hurt about it, pushed all the things to me ? which i dont even know what the fuck is happening at that time. the thing im glad is there is someone who help me overcome that things, help me alot, until there dont have anything happen to me.

since u know how to lie, i know too, how old are you? you are 23 !! and im just 17!! how can u pushed all those things to me ? which i dont even know what you all are talking about at that time, i was sleeping inside the room !!!!!!!

because of you, i learn alot of things, who to trust and who not to trust.
because of you, i become more strong.
because of you, i learn my lesson, for trusting you so much.
because of you, i know what person are you.
because of you, i know who is the person who really treat me good, who is really treasure me.
just because of you..........

but all in sudden, i miss you so much....
what he have been together, all those things, even though it hurts me so much, but i still treat you as my friend, no matter how you treat me, i still make you as my friend, which know me so well at that time, i will never never forget what we have been through together.


Monday, June 21, 2010

心情 ??

jasmine : 我想你了

jasmine : 我累了

jasmine : 我眼泪掉了下来,又有谁知道?

jasmine : 怎么了? 我又哭了

jasmine : 眼泪一直掉下来,怎么办 ?

jasmine : 烦死人

jasmine : 可不可以不要哭了 ?

jasmine : 他不爱我,我也不爱他了 ^^

jasmine : 我不会爱

jasmine : 我爱我的朋友

jasmine : 我笑了

jasmine : 有你们,我很开心

jasmine : 那个人对我最好

jasmine : 好怕自己爱上他

jasmine : 他是一个好人

jasmine : 我最爱我爸比和妈咪

jasmine : 我真的很开心^^

Sunday, June 20, 2010

我们的友谊怎么了 ? what happen to our friendship?

in the past , we are happy , we always be together, always hang out together, we got alot of things to say , but now what ? everytime u find me , just talk about money. you think what am i ? my dad and mum open bank issit? you know, i really wish we can go back to the past, i miss the time when i'm with you, happy together, hang out together, talk whatever we want.

now, when you find me, i dont even know should i be happy or sad? everytime u find me, im so glad that you still remember me, and want to talk with me , but end up talking about money, sigh ~

you used to be the person who know me the most well , and i'm the person who know u the most well , but now i think i dont know who are you anymore, who are you right now ? are you the past close friend i know ? or you change? when i'm not with you ?? ='[

it hurts me so much, i really want back the past , but past is past , everything had become memory, memory that i cant even get to forget , how happy when im with you, how sad im with you.

when we argued , after 5 minutes we will be ok, everyone thinks we are together, we look perfect together, but then we are just close friend , close friend that no one will think we are not together, we are that close before, why cant you just be the close friend which you used to be ? jasmine's close friend, jasmine's everything.

when jasmine need you , you will always be the first one who come beside me, and take care of me, when im sad , and im keeping quiet , you wont ask anything from me, you will try your best to cheer me up , always be the one who cheer me up at the first place, you dont ask me, because u know that i will tell you everything, when im back to normal...

when you are sad, im the first one who be at you side , and cheer you up , even you didnt say anything , i know everything, just because i know u well , just like u know me well.

but now.. where is the feeling ? where is the feeling before ? where is the feeling when we get together? where is the feeling when we hang out together? where is the feeling when we play together? issit all gone ? only left money ?

remember what we have said before? when i grow up and work, we find a house and live together, if we two get marry , you and your wife, me and my husband will stay together in the house...... remember, when we live together already, our house must have a disco room? and more guest room? for our friends to come over our house and party together? i bet you have forgotten what we have said before le, maybe jasmine, your close friend, isnt that important to you anymore, maybe just because i seldom hang out anymore, you think i forget about you, but i have never , even a second , i never forget about you, i miss you alot.

jasmine will always be the jasmine ....
and the jasmine will always love you and miss you this close friend....
i will never forget about you, what we said before, and when we hang out together.....

我就是这样的女生

请别爱这样的女孩。
  
  她有点懒,她不擅长做家务。
  
  她独立,也好强,她宁愿忍受太多的寂寞和痛苦也不愿

意向 别人提起。
  
  但其实骨子里,渴望有一个避风港湾,让她去依靠。但她不 会承认。
  
  她必须确定那个人是否可以承受得了这一切的,承受她的 撒娇,她的无理取闹,她的倔强,她的悲观,她所有的性格缺陷 且永远不离不弃。
  
  只有这样,她才放心,可以放心去继续做自己,不会害怕 有一天将要面对失去。如果没有,那么她只好继续寂寞和孤独。
  
  她对爱情没有安全感,也不会给别人安全感。
  
  她一定要对方先流露出对她有好感,她才散发她的热情。 她爱的永远是对她最好的那个,那个好她心里是有一个标准 的,你的积分超过了那条线,她会爱上你,但大多数人没超 过线之前就离开了,或者超过了之后没等她看到就离开了
  
  其实她要的并不多,她要的只是一个温暖的家。对她来说 太重要了,虽然在她们口中说出来的却是:我不需要爱情
  
  当你紧张他的异性朋友,她会一面跟你说,他只是我的谁谁 谁,却一面偷偷在意你的感受。。。
  
  对她们而言,唯一具备杀伤力的只有感情,感情如果受到 挫折,要么毁了她们,要么成就了她们。从此更加漠然,专注于 事业。
  
  她分手后完全不会像其他座在人面前要死要活,她嬉笑怒 闹,变得更加开朗。在听到朋友说有关他的话题时,从不刻 意回避,她适当参与,淡然微笑,她的表现总会遭人怀疑这 段感情的深浅,而人群中只有那些知道背后情节的人才看见她背 后的眼泪和努力。
  
  
  
  她从来不会在情人面前大声哭泣,除非她真的崩溃了。
  
  即使在你爱着她的时候,她也会胡思乱想让自己悲伤。
  
  如果你看到她的眼泪,请相信这绝不是她在博取同情,这是 她这样一颗内心骄傲的女子不得己的场景。
  
  她想对你负责,对她负责,对自己的过去和未来负责,但请 你不要轻易给她承诺和誓言。她很难相信。
  
  即使她很难相信,但她还是会选择等待。
  
  她的伤初始浓烈似酒,很快就会变为一杯水,却让水渗入 生活成为点点滴滴.她选择在其中淡定,在其中沉默和内伤。
  
  她就是这样,强势,霸道,任性。。。
  
  不会讨人欢心,死要面子,她爱朋友多过你。
  
  她最有保护欲,最没有秘密。
  
  最暴躁,最善变,最没耐心,最冲动,最耐不住寂寞却又喜 欢假惺惺的让自己一个人呆着。
  
  有时候她又充满阳光的气息,爱笑爱说话,活蹦乱跳,可爱 迷人。。
  
  她很自私,只愿意与人同甘,不愿意让别人跟她共苦。
  
  她的家庭不一定很是富裕,但她都是习惯了养尊处优。
  
  她喜欢热闹,总会成为聚会的焦点,前提是她想。
  
  她也享受孤独,会静坐在一个人的房间听着很伤感的音乐。
  
  她也会一整天呆在房间里心情压抑低落,但第二天一早起 来,又会轻轻松松的打理一切,慌慌忙忙的拽着大衣拎着包往外 冲。
  
  她习惯在人前表现的很坚强,一付大女子主义的模样。
  
  她会想,遇到真正懂她爱她宠她的人,她就一定就会很安 静,心甘情愿的安静下来,不烦,不闹,按时吃饭按时睡觉,按 时做一切能安心和他一起做的事情。
  
  她从不轻言爱,她的爱很沉默,那并非是因为她缺少那份勇 气,在她的心里有一道栅栏,那就是自尊。
  
  她看得比生命更尊贵的自尊。
  
  
  
  如果有一个这样的女孩对你说她爱你,那就代表在她的心里 你的分量胜过了她的自尊。
  
  你不了解她,不懂她的好,就别爱她。她会在真正爱她的 人面前卸掉所有的盔甲和伪装,做个幸福的小女人,她不要 求你要做什么,不会无理取闹要你陪着她,她有自己的生活,她 给你空间因为她也需要空间。
  
  她也会幻想,在遇到真正的他时,会在他累的时候悄悄熬 上点营养粥,然后说,看你这么不辞劳累本姑娘心情又不错犒劳 犒劳你。
  
  她在你面前永远性感调皮,偶尔撒撒娇,跟你玩陌生人的 游戏,在你的朋友面前从来大方得体,微笑的依偎在你身边。
  
  她不让你给她买这买那,她会说,我啊,是大女人,不喜 欢男人给我买单。。。但是心里却会为你私自买给她的礼物而暗 自开心,因为女人觉得那是你的宠爱。
  
  她在意的是你的心,你若真心,她必然实意。最起码你得表 现的真心,能让她感觉得到。
  
  她会经常冒出些新鲜的想法来调剂生活,她的多变有时会让 你不安。
  
  终有一天,她的敏感在你的呵护下慢慢消失不见,她的倔强 被你的保护软化,她的伪装在你面前被轻易识穿。。。
  
  得到她,别骄傲,因为没人可以吃定她。
  
  只有懂她的人,才会得到她的好。
  
  她有时是有些迟钝的,在感情方面,但有时很敏感,因为她 在乎。
  
  她有时想,当她遇上生命中的那个人,会爱的多么浓烈, 她渴望那种不计后果的极致,然后在强烈的碰撞中享受那种心痛 感。
  
  
  
  所以,别爱这样的女孩,她太偏激,太虚伪,太粗心,又太 神经质,太难伺候,太不温柔。。。
  
  如果你没勇气,没能力可以坚持爱她,就别爱她。
  
  因为如果你会离开,她的心将会永远冰封,再也不会为任何 人打开。。。。。。

Thursday, June 17, 2010

那些經常笑的人,并不代表他们經常都是很開心的...

總有一些人,他們看上去整天都很開心,沒有煩惱,像個小
孩,好多人都會羨慕他們,但其實不是這樣的。他們不想讓
別 人看到自己難過的一面,更沒有能力一個人獨處,因為當夜 深人靜的時候,他不知道一個人會發生什麽事,坐在窗前冥想走 過的點滴。­

他們貌似很堅強,因為在別人看來,他們什麽事都能微笑著去 面對,但事實上他們長著世界上最脆弱的心靈,只是長期的偽裝 使得別人很難發現他們內心深處的創傷。­

他們只想簡簡單單、快快樂樂的活著,期待並且相信每個人給 的笑容都是真心的,希望身邊的人都是真正的喜歡自己。即 使別人小小的意見,也會另他們難過好久,他們真的真的很 介意,介意自己不被人喜歡。因為,他們總是為別人想的很 多,對別人總是比對自己好;把能對喜歡的人好當做幸福,喜歡 別人比喜歡自己多。­

他們總是那樣,前一秒還傷心的流著淚,後一秒出現在朋友面 前的時候,已經滿臉溢著燦爛的笑容。有人說她們是向日葵, 是的,他們在意的人就像是太陽,在面對太陽的時候永遠 是明艷的花瓣,而太陽照不到的背面,那悲傷藏得那麽好,不願 被看見。­

他們向往放縱自由的生活,卻必須為了誰很努力的朝另外的一 個方向活著,很累很累,卻仍是心甘情願。離自己的夢境越 來越來遠,不得不面對從未想過的爭奪和復雜,恐慌、不知 所措。只有面對最信賴的人時,才會卸下盔甲,委屈的流下 眼淚。因為在他們心裏,笑就是開心,哭就是難過,接近就 是喜歡,遠離就是討厭。但其實不是,他們明白了,心好傷, 眼淚就沒忍住。哭過之後,笑笑得擦幹眼淚,說,沒關系,我可 以做的很好的。­

他們好像無所不能,好像總是不會有煩惱,好像什麽問題都能 輕而易舉的解決,總是喜歡喜歡出現在流淚的人面前,笑嘻 嘻的逗著笑。而面對自己的問題,他們卻茫然無措,面對自 己的悲傷,他們只會躲在人們看不見的角落裏慢慢由傷口越裂越 大。­

他們的想法非常簡單,說出來的就是心裏所想的,肚子裏不會 拐七道八道的小彎,無心的話可能會引起別人的誤解。所以, 請別記恨她們,他們從不願傷害誰,小小的錯誤就能讓他們懊悔 很久。­
他們其實非常單純,甚至你曾經給了他一個微笑她也會一輩子 記得你的好,因此他們的世界觀其實也很簡單,他們很容易 受蠱惑 ,請不要輕易的傷害他們的感情,因為一旦傷害了,那就將永 遠彌補不回來! 如果你身邊有這種人請你給予他(她)那怕是鳳毛麟角的那點 關懷,讓他(她)知道這個世界沒有拋棄他們.....

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

你还记得吗 ??


remember the time when i'm at his apartment, the way he sleep, is so cute. and he keep take away the blanket away from me when i sleep at his bed. i can't forget how happy when me and " them " together and play. those nights is the most happy nights i be with them, we play together, sing together, chit chat together, eat together, fetch people together, keep bit here and there and keep stealing the puppy doll together.

when i know everything is just a lie. my heart broken, how much i trust him, how much i love him, is just a lie, a lie that i can't even believe but slowly, i know what kind of person he is, what he has done in **** and what has he do and everything else, i know just because ******* care about me so damn much, and he told me the truth about him. thanks to my close friend, i know what kind of person he is and thanks to him , i know what kind of people can trust and what kind of people i can't trust.

remember the day i just met him, my first expression for him was " OMG ! this guy so handsome !! " but then slowly , his attitude, his style, is not that handsome for what he look like. a person handsome but heart not good , is worthless.

i remember i asked my close friend
i said : " is *****'s gf pretty? "
he said : " pretty? look like a chick ah !! "
i said : " why said people's gf like chick want? >< "
he said : " did u see a girl go out play all look like nerd before? "
i said : " no oo ~ "
he said : " yeah la ! she really like a chick "
i said : " how about me? i go out play also de >< "
he said : " you not same ma, because you with us geh, and you know how to control "

the chat makes my heart feel so warm, i just know that in my close friend heart, i'm not so spoil like those people said about me at outside, i just know that in all my friends heart, i'm that good, even though i go out play also, but it just make me feel so warm to know what my good friends, best friends and close friends think about me, because in their heart i'm not the girl people who keep rumours about.

i love all my friends
especially those which is close with me

你还好吗 ?

你 还 好 吗 ?
我 想 你 了 ~
我 真 的 很 想 你
但 是 不 知 道 怎 么 好
说 了 不 再 为 你 烦 了 , 不 会 再 担 心 你 了 , 不 会 在 管 了
但 是 我 就 是 做 不 到
怎 么 这 么 难 呀 ?
我 真 的 做 不 到
感 觉 自 己 快 断 气 了
自 己 不 知 道 该 怎 么 好 。 。 。
好 烦 哦 。 。
我 好 想 离 开 这 里
去 一 个 你 不 在 的 地 方

刚 刚 朋 友 告 诉 我 他 生 日
要 我 去 ~ 很 希 望 我 会 去
然 后 我 问 你 朋 友 你 有 没 有 去
然 后 他 说 你 跟 他 都 会 去
不 知 道 自 己 要 不 要 去
好 怕 看 到 你 , 我 的 心 又 不 动 摇 >< 唉 ~ 觉 得 自 己 好 没 用 。 。 。 难 到 我 只 能 这 样 吗 ? 我 不 能 放 弃 吗 ? 好 想 放 弃 我 真 的 好 累 我 弄 到 自 己 好 累 担 心 你 , 关 心 你 , 怕 这 个 那 个 的 。 。 真 的 不 知 道 自 己 在 怕 和 烦 什 么 。 。 。 慢 慢 才 知 道 。 。 原 来 我 是 那 么 的 爱 你 。 。 但 是 。 。 。 从 今 天 开 始 我 不 会 再 为 你 担 心 了 =] 答 应 了 朋 友 。 。 就 要 做 到 ~

disappointed on you

i cant believe you're this kind of people, seriously ~ i'm disappointed on you already, after hearing he said all about you, i wont be an idiot anymore, keep waiting for you to care or whatever, im tired already. what i said to you, is just wasting my time, saliva and energy to care about you only, since you like to dota so much , so ahead and play , since u like to go clubbing so much , go go go ! i dont care anymore, go there can hug girls , can flirt with girls and dance with girls, from now on , i wont care a shit about you anymore. you think i feel really great ? everyday worry about you, want to message you but scare disturb you playing game? yes, i dont feel good just because im worry , what you want me to do ? you just treat me like shit !! yeah, maybe u think that we broke up le , we dont need to be so close already, why break up cant be friends? we can also be close friends, like me and my ex ... we are so close, but then you what ? after break up go and flirt with girls, dont think i dont know, im not idiot, what you do , where you go , all i know, because there always be someone telling something about you, im glad that your cousin isnt like you, i mean one of them, not the L !!! i lazy to say already, disappointed ~

new pictures



feel like weird weird geh ><

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

突然想他了

i miss him ~ i really do ..
i love him .. maybe he just dont love me anymore i guess.
he treat me so cold . i really miss him , i want him to care me like before, just everything just didnt come for what i want, i mesaged him , told him to drink more water, sleep early , go home early, remember to eat more, he replied me , sleep early , take care of myself , dont so clumsy, he still remember i'm clumsy.

remember the time i'm with him , when at his apartment , i sleep with him , he hugged me. his warm body, make me so warm. remember when i play with him , he will take care of me .

remember one time in centrepoint , i play like a crazy woman , he just got mad at me , tell me no more next time, want play just can when he is there just can play , i promised him that , and i remember i promise him that i will take a good result for him, i really work hard on my study, i did gain alot on my study, i told him , and he is happy.

just pass few days, on saturday night , i went to find him , he hugged me, because i ask for it, is really warm , and he pinch my face, i feel like i still be with him , i just realize how much i love him and cant leave him , i really wish i can be with him again , if he give me one more chance i will never let him go again, because i love him more than my friends, this is the first guy i love so much and love him more than my friends.

now i just can remember and miss those memories we have together before , there is no way you will come back to me again . right? =[

i love you alot~ JL




周杰伦 ~ 我爱你 ~












我爱周杰伦 ~
他是最棒的了 ~
音乐才子 !!
又是导演~
最爱他了啦 ~